I don't normally watch the news, as I know it's 99% bad. But the breakfast shows are usually a bit more lighthearted, so I was watching this morning while I had breakfast. But a news update came on and it included graphic footage of some Oregon teens who thought it would be fun to take turns beating the crap out of another kid, film it, set it to music, and pass out DVD copies of it. What the hell is wrong with the world? It made me cry and still is. Add to that the crawl at the bottom about a pregnant mother of 7 being dead (don't know how, but probably in some horrible, preventable way) and last night I heard the desperate pleadings of a mother whose teen daughter had either run away or been abducted.

Why on earth do I want kids so badly? It seems like they'll either be tormented, tormentors, or end up with a physical or mental disability or die in some horrifying way. There seems to be so little hope left in the world these days. Sometimes I wonder why we bother going on.